Edie's first time in a high chair... there's something about their first time doing anything, so adorable and wonderful seeing them become a little person.
ahhh, doesn't that look so lovely?
We're still here in California: the sunshine and warmth and visits with family and friends doing us a whole lot of good. Well - they think it's cold this week, but we know it to be 30 and snowing at home!
Vera has enjoyed the beach more than any other trip. She literally dances and jumps for joy, running back and forth to the water, digging, finding *treasures* and building castles and shouting YAY HooRAY!
So much fun jumping off the wall here with Eva's cousins:
Posted by ann.e at 9:20 AM
We had a great time at Disneyland!! Such a happy, wonderful place :) The weather was PERFECT. It was really crowded too - however, Mike just had back surgery and so he used a wheelchair all day... which also happens to get you to the front of the line!
the teacups were the best!
storybook land (not sure what it was called) she wouldn't watch as our boat entered the whale's mouth :)
the princesses! I just watched Vera's expressions as they each came on stage. She was SO.HAPPY.
When Cinderella came on stage she whispered to herself, "Cinderella! She's so pretty...." Ben got a picture of her with Cinderella on his phone... I need to get it.
Snow White brushed by her doing this little maypole dance and she totally held her breath :) I tried to switch maypoles so she could be by Cinderella but was too late.
She did well on the submarine ride too, though she got a little scared when the mines exploded :( None of us saw it coming.
After Mike and Rosie left, Ben embraced his role as physically/mentally impaired:
just entering the park. Vera had an awesome time and despite all the excitement, sugar, running around, she didn't have the meltdown I predicted!
Posted by ann.e at 5:24 PM
I want to post these pictures of Edie at 4 months before I wait too long and she's 5 months! It's going by fast and I love to think what she'll be doing in the next 4 months :) So at her appointment last week she weighed 13 lbs 15 oz (50%) and was 24 3/4 inches long (75%). She has the cutest little soft voice and talks a lot - you just have to listen close :) She is ticklish on her tummy and neck and has the cutest little giggle. She has only rolled over a few times - from tummy to back. Her sleeping is getting even worse, if that's possible. I lose track of how many times I wake up each night and am entering new levels of fatigue :/ Just you wait little Edie until this cold is over - you will be learning to go back to sleep on your own! It's so fun to watch her be more and more aware - especially of her big sister Vera who gets lots of smiles from her. I hear little waking noises now, better be off.....
our little fuzzball:
Posted by ann.e at 9:13 AM
There's a newish health food store here that carries mostly items in bulk. I found out that if you buy really in bulk - like an entire 50 lb. bag of organic oats - you get an even bigger discount. So a friend and I [thankfully!] split the 50 lb. and now I feel like I'm in a race to use these up before they get "buggy" - as a lady from church informed me. 25 lbs. is even more than I thought it would be...
We've been eating lots of oatmeal, served with mashed banana, cinnamon and milk [Vera's favorite breakfast until she was introduced recently to honey nut cheerios.]. I personally have been eating a TON of granola. I tweaked my friend's recipe a bit and seriously LOVE it. In plain yogurt, milk or even on a peanut butter dipped spoon :) We also just made these really good oatmeal peanut butter chocolate chip cookies that I found on epicurious. I have yet to make my mom's oatmeal bread, but it's next on my list - you can see how much I like that bread on my other blog [that I haven't written on in a year or so]. Jenny, how are you faring?? I keep meaning to ask! Anyway, here's the granola recipe if you're interested, which you should be :)
3 C oats
1/2 C whole wheat flour
1/2 C almond meal
2 T wheat germ
1/4 C brown sugar
1 1/2 tsp cinnamon
1/2 tsp salt
1/4 tsp ground ginger
1/4 C oil (I like coconut oil!)
1/4 C honey
1/4 C milk
a few handfuls of toasted almonds and grated coconut (best added near the end)
bake @ 300 for 50-60 minutes, stirring every 10 minutes.
Posted by ann.e at 5:55 PM
One day a week ago I realized that I was feeling normal. And I was even home alone with the girls in the late afternoon when I realized it! I thought I would just get it down *on paper* some of these thoughts and feelings I've had in the last few months. I go back and forth in my head wondering if I officially had/have postpartum depression. I'd read through some of the flyers from the hospital, answering "yes" to all their questions.. but I was and am still hesitant to label it depression. I mean that's such an official word, you know? I also didn't want to blame my attitude on something that would remove the responsibility from myself [like being selfish, lazy, tired, discontent etc.], but I definitely wasn't feeling right in the head - I can tell especially now that it seems to be gone.
It's funny, since I realized many of the 'symptoms' had faded, I've already started to forget exactly how to describe them. I didn't feel this all the time, or always intensely, but every day to a varying degree I felt helplessness, extreme loneliness, fear - of what? I don't even know, just fear and a sense of dread that something bad was going to happen. Isolation, claustrophobia, a feeling of being trapped and then a lot of guilt that I was not enjoying it all - "all" meaning the constant care and dependency of a newborn baby, feeling that I am just not good at it. Basically, I couldn't get my mind to rest. I cried a lot. Haha I love this - Ben was talking to Vera a few weeks ago and said, "She's a good mama, isn't she?" and Vera replied, "Yeah, she always cries sometimes." :)
I imagine much of this was due to the cold weather and not being able to get out of the house easily. Also I'm sure a lot had to do with the painful first months of nursing when it felt like hot knives in my chest all day, coupled with the anxiety of hoping it would work out as well as craaazy hormones crashing. And like I said, some of it is plain selfishness - I want to be able to up and go somewhere when I want to! I want to go to bed when I want to! I want this baby to stop being fussy and to just sleep an hour!
Things that helped were to get out every day, especially to see a friend every day. It helped to have a plan for the whole week, places to go, things to get done [small things]. Ben was extremely helpful and understanding - even when my emotions were totally irrational :) One friend said during the first 6 months with her second child she had the goal to just keep everyone alive by the end of the day - I tried to repeat that to myself to keep the pressure off. I also really tried to maintain prayer in my heart during quiet times - nursing, rocking to sleep, having my mate, though I do hope to get better about a Bible reading routine. It's also gotten easier as Edie has gotten bigger and more interactive, the weather is better and I think my hormones have finally settled.
I wanted to write this down, especially to just remember and possibly be able to encourage someone else that it will pass or encourage myself the next time that it will pass [though had it not passed, I would have gone to my midwife to see about taking something]. This baby-having is difficult! I really believe that children should be raised in a community - with friends and family all helping each other. Both at Thanksgiving and Christmas when we were with family, my mind felt happy and at rest. Both times, the fear and loneliness immediately came rushing right back. I don't really know how to write my "conclusion" here... I really just wanted to have it here to remember what I felt and what helped. If any of you friends need encouragement after having a new baby PLEASE let's talk :)
One thing - throughout all this, I have felt nothing but love and affection for little Eden. She really brings me so much joy - little, sweet, snuggly, warm, soft, smiley, fuzzy-headed Edie.
Posted by ann.e at 10:13 AM
Ben and Vera hunted for treasure the other afternoon. They made a map of the backyard with several red Xs and then he'd go to 'make sure there's some treasure' - hiding the marbles, coins and rocks. She was sooo excited about it all. With all the money she found, she's taking us to Disneyland!
Ben is really a great dad, if you haven't figured that out. He loves to play with Vera and loves to do special, fun, creative things together. I think because his dad was that way! Even Edie loves him - today he came home for a minute at lunch and she immediately started cooing and smiling at him, hoping for a little attention from her daddy :)
He's also great in encouraging me to get out. For tonight he bought Vera and I tickets to the Utah gymnastics meet!! Fun mommy/daughter time :)
Posted by ann.e at 2:06 PM