I actually started this several months ago and just found it in the drafts. Even since then I feel things have settled down in this area and I am less emotional about it. Partly it's just the way things are. I remember writing a long post right after I nursed Vera for the last time - I felt that tiny change, that first separation and knew it would never be the same. Since then it's been a slow moving away, moving towards becoming her own little person. I think with Edie I know what's coming and it makes me so sad - I just want to s.l.ow. it all down and keep my baby, my baby. I think Vera and I have found other ways to be close, and I want to keep encouraging that. Anyway... I just love these two so SO much, that's all.
*Have you seen the episode of Modern Family where Phil is "the fun one?" Well that's us - haha. I'm Claire. I am the serious one, the let's please eat your dinner now, enough silliness! That's been hard - because obviously the 4 year old is going to gravitate to the fun one. I had a bit of a hard time with that but am feeling fine now - I just need to spend quality time with my kids in a way that's me - walking at the park, cooking, drawing, reading, making things, etc.