*despedida

I wasn't sure if I'd write about this here, because, well, it's kind of embarrassing. and humiliating. and maddening and unfair. But I think it's good for me to get it out - especially in writing [it's a long one: I guess we can consider it just a catharsis for me, not obligatory for you to read :)]. Because I have been turning it over and over in my head and am feeling a knot in my stomach that won't go away. Also this way I won't have to explain it a hundred times. So anyway, I got FIRED on Wednesday. I don't think I have ever been fired before and like I said, it's embarrassing.

So I walked in to work and my boss (who you might remember me saying is a bad bad person) sat me down and read a list of grievances. I keep thinking about this, and I truly believe that they were pretty much all false [I don't pay attention to details, I don't run food enough, I don't tell tables about the restaurant, I'm an insubordinate??]. The only one I can give him any credit for is that I can be timid at tables - which has been the case maybe twice when it was someone important and intimidating. I truly believe that I worked really hard and conscientiously at this job and I got the same impression from my customers. I don't want to go too into detail about my manager, but I will say that from the beginning I have never been treated in such a demeaning, condescending, you-are-an-ignorant-piece-of-shit manner. The thing is, it's such an amazingly wonderful company [the original market I mean] and he just does not fit in with the atmosphere of it all.

I've written a letter to the owner and am really not sure if I should send it. What would you do? I don't want to come off as spiteful at all, because I don't want to further alienate myself from such a great place [I mean where will I get my cheese??]. On the other hand, I really want him to be aware of how his manager acts. A person that will call a customer a "stupid f***ing b****" just out of earshot and [1/4 jokingly] told me he'd punch me "in the f***ing face" if I cut the butter on the wrong counter?

Let me end this happily. Obviously I believe God works everything for good. I am mad, my pride is hurt and I'm sad to not be a part anymore of such an awesome place, but I am also home with my family and away from an environment that was really affecting me negatively. I really want to move on and not dwell and just be thankful.

One thing I can be thankful for is that we're leaving tomorrow for the Sierras!!!!