Some [honest] thoughts on it all:
::I feel very lucky in that I haven't been that sick - just a little bit here and there if I need to eat something. Also super-tired in the afternoons, but I've even seen a lot of increase in energy in the last week. I have had a bit of insomnia, lying awake for a couple hours in the early morning which isn't fun.
::At first, though I was excited, I was actually more anxious than anything. Anxious because I'm afraid of the end of pregnancy when things are hurting and miserable, anxious about how I've already gained a ton of weight, anxious because I will probably have another enormous baby (V was 9lb 5oz), anxious about the delivery which did not go as I'd hoped, really anxious about the recovery - last time it was a literal war zone down there, and especially anxious about where this baby will sleep/nap in this small house and how it will affect Vera's sleep. How's that for being positive? :)
::Ben finally got through to me one day when he put his head down on my tummy and said "hi!" - wait a minute, this isn't a pregnancy, a birth, a hundred or so stitches, this is another CHILD. of OURS. that as hard as it is to fathom, we will love just as much as we do his/her big sister. And so I started to get more excited and started to let some of the anxiety go. I'm trying to pray a lot and think very positively, know that everything will be ok - that my feet won't stay swollen, that the pain will go away, that our kids will learn to sleep, etc. [tho I would appreciate any advice from any of you moms of 2!]
4 comments:
Congrats! So excited for you guys...
Wow, you said it! I am feeling those exact fears! We just put the sonogram pics up of the fridge last night, makes it more real, seeing that little bean everytime I open the fridge (which is alot lately) Glad that you are feeling good.
Call if you need any support about joining the second Mommy's club......but here are a few happy thoughts. I too had a war zone with Camdyn, and only 1 simple stitch with Lilly....Lilly was also smaller than Camdyn and the birth was TONS easier (though a bit longer). Also, lots of worried about Camdyn sleep and that has gone MUCH better than planned! You will be fantastic!
For me the anticipation of having two was a lot worse than what has unfolded. The "unknowns" are the hardest part when you are pregnant, but somehow it all comes together.... The sleep thing has not been a problem for Madeline (she was not a good sleeper for her first 18 months). She is old enough now that she sleeps through things and plus a sound machine sure helps.. If you have any specific questions you can always email me...
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